When I eat a pizza- no not a slice, a whole pizza. I love every minute of it, and then a bit later I feel sick. When I eat ice cream, followed by chips, followed by cookies, followed by cheese the same thing holds true. I love every minute of my eating, and then I feel sick. I inevitably vow I will never do this again. And then a few weeks later rinse and repeat. Some would say I don’t treat my body with respect. Others might say I just don’t listen to my body, and may others would chime in with I’m emotional eating. In the moment I’m doing it because I am enjoying the hell out of what I am eating and it tastes damn good. That’s it. I’m not thinking about my confidence, or my emotions, or what it will do to me later, I am simply thinking yummmmm. Okay maybe I’m also a little bored, but more so…YUMMMMM….
The thing is though I do have respect for myself. And, really, I am quite confident. And more so I’ve come to terms with my emotions. Yes I eat out of boredom, but I make the bad choices because YUMMMMM. I’m kind of okay with this.
I have a friend who won’t eat all the things she enjoys around others. I have another friend who said she is the same way. I myself have gone out at lunch while my husband is at work, bought and eaten an entire Home Run Inn pizza and then thrown away and cleared the evidence. (Side note for those who haven’t tried Classic Frozen Home Run Inn pizza- DO IT-). I always think I’m an adult. I don’t need to hide my choices. Why am I ashamed? When my husband kills a steak, and then a full bag of chips in one sitting he doesn’t hide it from me. I don’t sit there and judge him for it. No I think “why am I ashamed to do it.” And really why am I.
I want us to get over it. I want to reclaim our adulthood and not be apologetic for it. I’m healthy. I’m overweight but damn I’m healthy. I walk an average of 12,500 steps a day. I eat fruits, and whole grains, and lean proteins, I just also eat a bag of chips, or a whole pizza every few weeks. I don’t need flack. And I don’t think you are giving it to me when I actually think about it. Really am I that important that you are paying attention to what I am eating. HELL NO. So here is my goal for you and me and everyone else. Next time you want to order dessert when you are out- order. Next time you want the next slice- take it. Then maybe the next day have the fruit. Again I’m not advocating do it all the time, I’m just saying own it. Be proud of who you are. I think it will make a change. When we are proud of who we are we feel better. It’s not okay for us not to be proud of ourselves in our own skin. So for today I ate junk. I’m going to finish with Chinese food tonight, and I will probably finish the rest of my vacation eating what I want. And I promise not to shy away from it!
Posted on January 15, 2016, in Beauty is Confidence, Food and tagged body confidence, Body Shaming, Classic Home Run Inn Pizza, Food Shaming, Frozen pizza, Home Run Inn Pizza. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.